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Title : cute cute ^^

This few days my health not very good, feeling weak :( Lim ah feng ask me to play more games and i will recover, i will listen to him, you know why? Because he love me, he won't harm me! Haha. So i woke up in the early morning and play maple, evan level 107 ^^ Later 11am going in maple train jiafeng's evan to level 100 if today i'm free whole day, jiaqi haven't reply me, is yipeng going interview or not, argh! I need to work already $.$! Hehe.

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Title : Miss grandmother so muchy♥

Today is grandmother 100th days, going off to pray. Eating waffle and drinking soya bean for my breakfast, yummmmmmmmmmy ^^ Bye ♥

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Title : pocoyo.

Evan level 106, i can 107 but i totally no mood to train yesterday night, plus damn tired :( Chiong for so many days, i finally start to tired, morning didn't manage to wake up at 8am. Perhaps i'm too tired. Scrolling witch belt is fun :D I want have many many tokens and scroll scroll scroll! Didn't know scrolling was so fun, training with bryan whole day, thanks him for spamming, but i spam a lot yesterday too, argh. my messos going no more already, but now messos so expensive, zz! I want genesis book2, i want good staff/wand, going fm later on to look for it :D Bishop level 133, spam whole day level once, fml. Yesterday one baby hamster die again, i just failed! Don't feel like having hamsters anymore, seeing one die after another, it sucks! 8 hamsters left :( Yesterday was mummy birthday, happy belated birthday mummy ♥. And tomorrow is my grandmother 100th days, i miss her like hell! While folding jing zi just now, i remembered her, everytime i haven't go home, she will call me, ask where are you, i freaking miss that, sobs. I hope next life i can be your grand-daughter again! muacks. ♥ I miss your voice so much :( My memories seems to get worse, my brain cells left not much, i keep forgetting things, fml.

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Finally have bit of time for posting ^^ Bought 2x coupons for two days straight, don't really have time to rest, i should have a good rest tonight! Got my scar helmet today with jiafeng, yang and jan's bro, but got a under average, every +18 only. And yesterday went cwkpq, although i don't know how to do at first but thanks jan's bro keep helping me. But in the end i still can't make it, died two or three times, with angel's ress. LOL. Lag kills! Helped sith 2nd rounds scar run with my bishop and body3 i died because of lag again, thanks jiafeng for coming my house to help me to make my desktop. My evan still struck at level 90 and jiafeng's evan is level 87. Find one day, we buy 2x coupon together and chiong together at esw k? ^^.

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Title : Tired :(

Omg, yesterday lappy come and i try to download maple like a retarded, in the end i fall asleep while waiting for it to be done, 2am suddenly wake up and maple is done! ^^ It's like finally! And check everything is fine and went to sleep. Wake up @ 8am today and start training from level 58 to now level 70, ohmygod, i feel that i'm so lifeless. After finish what i should do, going find work, need $$! Hehe. Maybe later in the mid-night, i will continue chiong jiafeng's evan, depends on my tiredness, feel so tired right now, siting on the chair facing 2 computers from just now till now, i look so busy just now, using two computers at once. And sith level higher than me already :( sobsob, but still grats! Jiayou jiayou. Alright, shall stop here, hope i can reached level 100 as fast as i could.

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Title : ngo oiy ney a,

Hi, I'm back to post. I'm so so so boring, maple is having server check till 11.30am. I wanted to chiong today, but argh. Stupid maple server check, one week sure have at least one time of server check. A new start of the day, and in my heart i just remember 3D(s) :) I don't care, I don't bother and I don't know! Swee ت Nothing gonna go in my way, NEVER ^^ Jiafeng's evan finally level 58, and now i'm yawning, tomorrow going to buy 2x and chiong 24hours :( NOOOOOOOOO! I hate training noob acc! Always got ks by others, when i'm using my evan, no one dare to ks me, stupid jiafeng's noob acc. Gonna help you level 100, not noob anymore ^^ My head going burst soon, having headache right now, i think i should rest early today and start to chiong tomorrow morning. I need lappy for tomorrow, i can holy symbol etc. And tomorrow i can get my scar helm already, so happy :) Alright, shall stop here, going rest already, no ones is to disturb me when i'm resting, thanks :)

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Title : shag.

I don't want care anymore, pissing off. I'm not going to think anymore, just want to have fun with pg. Sick of all this bullshit! Yes, don't contact then don't contact, do you think i need you? I don't need you. Even i giving up, i also won't patch with you, stop asking, it's so irritating. I find no reason to train evan anymore, there's only one reason, i promised you that i will get the scroll(s) for you. I heard her evan level quite high, maybe she got the scroll(s). Argh, everything i did is meaningless. Going have fun right now, bye.

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Title : i just don't understand,

What you mean? Can i know? Can you tell me everything that you're thinking? I want to know, i really want to know. You said he care for me, yes, he did care for me. Because, i really going break down and i need friends around me to care for me, you won't know after i said i want to give up and more things happened, i don't feel like saying here, if without talking to my friend(s) maybe i won't be here to writing this post now. If can, i really want to know, i just don't understand! Sorry if i offended anyone by saying it in the preview two posts. I just don't want you to get into deeper hurt, and now i'm giving up, i hope i can, but not 100% sure can give up, but i'm trying. I do bother because one simple reason, i do care. Thanks Sarah, dear and Jiafeng by being my listening ears, w/o you all for the past few days, i might just break down. thanks a lot :)

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Title : the choice is yours

I got nothing much to say, but i'm here to say, if because of what i wrote in the preview post that makes you not to be friend with me, is your choice. I can't say anything anyway, but i'm not going to take back what i'd already say. i think what i say is right, not because of knowing you not going to treat me as friend anymore and i delete away the post. I think one finally day you will understand :) I don't know why you don't want to give her up but maybe there's a reason behind it. Anyway, you're not ugly, i'm sure you can find some better girls out there, i know you want to be single right now, i'm just saying! :) Maybe this is love? :O

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Title : I'm a fool,

Oh please, why should i because of you and mia? I wonder why i got such stupid thinking before. If you think you did everything is right, then so be it. I got no rights to say or whatever but i'm still going to write it here, because i just don't like the way she is. If you find that, waiting for her, in the end you will get her, then happy waiting, because as you know, when she is with you, how many guys had she been flirting? And even now, she's not yours, she got herself a stead, but you still don't want to give up, why is that for? Talking to you, making you can't give up, or you yourself don't want to give up, only you yourself know. If you find that the day she made up her mind to dump you, do you ever think she will want you back? Don't ever say i'm jealous because i'm already trying to give up, i just don't like how she do, everything in her way, if her boyfriend know that, the day she stead with him, till now, she'd been flirting so many guys, how will her boyfriend feels? I guess you'd this feeling before. Even if she want you back, she continue to flirt, will you like it? If you be with her back, will you find it insecure and will lose her again? Do you want this kind of love life again? I'm just saying, if you want to take it as bullshit, up to you.

Girl,

Please stop flirting, even i got no rights. If you continue flirt, if your boyfriend know it how? Or treat yourself in his shoe, if he'd been flirting with girls. How do you feel? I hope you will understand why i'm saying all this, not because i jealous. I won't feel jealous because, i don't think i can't find a guy who truly love me with all his heart, if you really love your boyfriend, why are you still having such immature mind, because of your recently acts makes me can't control of writing everything i want to say out.

You can treat me as a bad person, as you wish. But one day you will find that all those i said is true, because I'd this feeling before. I know what will happened in the end, everything i gone before is more than you.

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Title : Ishouldlaughatmyself,

Oh, back to post in the early morning of 14oct2010 :) And today is jiazheng's birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY once again :) And one month later would be jiafeng's birthday :) Once i saw birthday, i thought of last year i celebrated my grandmother birthday with her, but this year there's no more her, but she will always be in my heart forever, just dream of her last night, hope she's used to the place, anyway, one day i will still go and accompany you :) I miss you so so so much. Muacks. I gave it a thought, i think i should end my feeling for you slowly, since you said it 64days ago. I'm the stubborn that don't want to listen to you, now it's the time to give up. Thanks for accompany me message, when i message you at least you did reply. Now, from this start, i'm not going to message you anymore, maybe you can find it not so irritating, replying someone who message you everyday, it such a bored! :) I'm so not going to think anymore, don't worry, i will help you get your scroll(s) for sure, make it the last thing i doing it for your sake :)

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Title : I want to know, tell me please!

Yes, this is my childhood, cute right? Hehe, so bhb :/ Watched 下一站，幸福 from 11am till now, the show is like damn touching, romantic and somehow will have a bit sad parts. If i got such boyf, it would be great, it's just a *IF*, it won't come true :) I wanted to continue watch but once my mum came back home, first thing she will do is nag nag nag, everyday nagging same stuff, ain't you tired of repeating? You ruined my mood! Oops, did i just forget to train jiafeng's evan? Ohmygod, i can't make it for today, my mum asked me to off my computer again, seriously if she want to continue nagging, one day i will just leave this house, even if i die outside also don't want to come back and listen to her nags, it's seriously fucking irritating. I just hate it when you scold and shout, can't you just shut up! Pissing me off.

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Title : I'm letting go soon,

Wow, it'd been 62days! I'd never wait guy for so long before, it's kinda testing my patience. I don't know why i just feel like i got no chance, and i'm soon going to let go. Thanks for treating me better as compare to last time, but i don't want to love you more, the more i love the harder to let go. If i can, i will slowly let go. Evan level 89, i failed. I didn't manage to level 90 before the server check, ohmygod! At least i got 94%, later sure level up, hehe.

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Title : I'd been lying to myself,

I'm not going to emo like what others have been saying, I'm going to be who I am. Because like what i told zhiying, we live for ourself not for others. Why do we need to let others words pull us down? Yes, I'm strong and I'm going to be stronger, your words and actions can't pull me down.

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Title : There's only her,

I thought my tenderness would mean the universe to you
I thought I could fill in all the empty space in your love life
I concentrated on being next to you, to compensate for all her wrongs
Perhaps I've been to naive, thinking that miracle happens
I thought that at the very end, you will gradually understand that her heart is no longer with you
You are nevertheless insensitive to my concern for you
The *I thought* was all along just my thoughts
She made you cried, yet you forgave her with a smile
All along you've already decided who you wish to be with
I thought I was strong enough, but i became more disappointed as days pass by,
Stop giving me a little bit hope. Where there's no hope, there won't be miracle.

meaningful? :) I find it meaningful. Wanted to wake up @ 4am this morning but i think there surely won't be bus or LRT, so i continue sleep until 5.45am and prepare to go school find dear, he teaching me maths and i understand quite well, this paper was quite easy but after choonhan and co. saying the answer, mostly of my answer is not same, what the hell is that. Oh my god! And 2pm started last paper geography :) I did 2 questions and left 30mins so i sleep, wake up my hand numb, LOL. Stupid sia, ._. After geography, my stress is finally over, everything is over :D So happy, fucking happy, :/ Hehe. Can chiong my evan for Joel for now, hope to level 100 as fast as i could. There's only her and no me, i did whatever i can, but i failed i lost :) Heh. ^^v.

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Yesterday took Art @ 8am till 11am. It's like great. First time like my art exam so muchmuchmuchmuch :D I did 9pages 5pieces. I still thought i cant draw like what Mr Yeo help me to draw, but i did it, it was somehow same, but not so nice but i'm still happy with what i did :) Drawing took me 10mins, painting and coloring took 1hr50mins. Total all i took 2hrs to complete my final art piece, and still left 1hr, draw one more page of sketches and color my layout, I find my layout coloring is nicer than my final art piece, .___. Because colourpencil is nicer :/ Started with a great day and i study my maths until my maths paper start @ 2pm, and the question begin to become harder and harder, until i don't know what to do. "N" Level is harder than preliminary. Hope there's still hope for my maths paper2 so that i won't go ITE. Ok, i can't say that too, need 5subjects to go up to secondary5. I think only my primary school reportbook got 5subjects passed uh, my secondary school reportbook like shit! Later i going to revise my maths for paper2 but still hope there will be someone to help me on it :)

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Do I really understand everything? Do guys really see the looks of a girl and like her? Sometime i'm jealous of sweet couples out there. I'd been waiting for your message, i guessed you must have forgotten me :) How silly of me, waiting for your message whole day. Nothing gonna change.

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I give up! Everything i did is just nothing.

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Title : What happen to me?

I'm just fucking pissed off, you started to get my number and you message you whenever you want, thinking i'm what? I'm something that can stop your bored? Seriously sometime i really hate it. Just fuck off away from me. Today i just don't know why i fucking mood-less. Maybe i just need a shoulder to lie on, just to relax myself. It'd been 51days today, i don't know how long more i can love you, just one sided. Sometime it's seriously very awful, i just don't like the feeling of being one sided, i guessed no one like it too. Please don't even give me anymore fake hope, enough of fake hopes. Sometime, i just feel like staying in the glue world, at least glue can make me feel happy, so what feel it's bad for me? Everything in this world is changing, I'm changing with it too. Everyone change, so can't blame anything. And I'm fucking having moodswing right now, zzz! Why do i keep feel like throwing up? Am i having any illness? Everytime i say, i trying to find topic but i just say something you don't like. I'd enough, i starting to hate myself, sorry. I just don't know what to do, sometime i said something wrong, i was just blaming myself and i guess she's the only one who can make you happy. Even how hard i tried, is useless. 51days passed, nothing touched you. What else can i wish for?