What you mean? Can i know? Can you tell me everything that you're thinking? I want to know, i really want to know. You said he care for me, yes, he did care for me. Because, i really going break down and i need friends around me to care for me, you won't know after i said i want to give up and more things happened, i don't feel like saying here, if without talking to my friend(s) maybe i won't be here to writing this post now. If can, i really want to know, i just don't understand! Sorry if i offended anyone by saying it in the preview two posts. I just don't want you to get into deeper hurt, and now i'm giving up, i hope i can, but not 100% sure can give up, but i'm trying. I do bother because one simple reason, i do care. Thanks Sarah, dear and Jiafeng by being my listening ears, w/o you all for the past few days, i might just break down. thanks a lot :)