I'm just fucking pissed off, you started to get my number and you message you whenever you want, thinking i'm what? I'm something that can stop your bored? Seriously sometime i really hate it. Just fuck off away from me. Today i just don't know why i fucking mood-less. Maybe i just need a shoulder to lie on, just to relax myself. It'd been 51days today, i don't know how long more i can love you, just one sided. Sometime it's seriously very awful, i just don't like the feeling of being one sided, i guessed no one like it too. Please don't even give me anymore fake hope, enough of fake hopes. Sometime, i just feel like staying in the glue world, at least glue can make me feel happy, so what feel it's bad for me? Everything in this world is changing, I'm changing with it too. Everyone change, so can't blame anything. And I'm fucking having moodswing right now, zzz! Why do i keep feel like throwing up? Am i having any illness? Everytime i say, i trying to find topic but i just say something you don't like. I'd enough, i starting to hate myself, sorry. I just don't know what to do, sometime i said something wrong, i was just blaming myself and i guess she's the only one who can make you happy. Even how hard i tried, is useless. 51days passed, nothing touched you. What else can i wish for?