愛 ت,

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炎亞綸♥

My butterfly.

Okay! Tomorrow I need to stay back in school for dancing rehearsal, from 2.30pm to 6pm. I think I need to sleep after I blogged, didn't took my afternoon because of watching my dramas. 霹雳MIT finished, watching 终极一家. 炎亞綸♥ . I admire him, cute, I like. This few days, my feeling got mixed up. And I seriously hate it, I don't know what I want.

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Title : I want to eat 100 aeroplanes so I can have one wish.

This three couples compatible right? :D

高以翔 shuai ♥

Keke, I'm back to post. Today Miss Tia change our seats, move to second row but luckily with kelvin. Got my result slip but, got three passed and three failed. English 50/100, Chinese 47.5/100, Mathematics 44/100, Science(Physic&Biology) 74.2/100, Combined humanities(S&G) 46.9/100 & lastly art 66/100. I'm extremely happy because my science(physic&biology) I'm the top ^^. Happy girl to the max k? :D This few days, had been watching drama and playing maple. Watched 恶作剧之吻 , 愛似百匯 , 我要變成硬柿子 , 泡沫之夏 & now still watching 霹雳M.I.T. 炎亞綸!! ♥ Shuai dai le On 26 March 2011, Jiaqi came and we drink again. This time round, I drink just a little. Don't like the feeling keep wanting to vomit. Jiaqi told me her sadness, she didn't want to go home, so I ask her to stay. She was telling me about how she feel, yeah. I bet I know how awful the feel are. She ask me to off the fan, don't open the window, I was like gosh! How am I suppose to sleep? Sleep till 2.30am, I seriously can't take it, I went to my sister's room sleep, with air-con, song ah. Sorry ah, didn't pangseh you purposely, didn't want to wake you up from your sleep that's why I didn't on the fan. Play maple because kelvin wanted, this few days keep on playing and I was wondering how to pass my N level like this, by playing maple every single day. Alright, today is 28 March 2011. Fighter level 35, Magician level 27. ^^

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Title : 泡沫之夏

19032011.

My strawberry jelly.

10 donuts :P

My strawberry dream.

Jiaqi's scary face.

Choonhan's scary face.

Okay, after 恶作剧之吻 & 愛似百匯, I'm watching 泡沫之夏 nao. And I shall watch this two 我要變成硬柿子 & 福氣又安康 after 泡沫之夏. Choonhan and Jiaqi intro me 霹雳M.I.T. I'm so freaking busy because of watching dramas. Alright, shall summarize what I'd done few days back. Thursday I went to plaza meet up with Gelene, slack at the top of the carpark, playing monopoly deals. She won 4rounds straight, okay! And I won the last round only. Super unlucky! That night a lot of the flies, flying around. Irritate us, ZZ. Yesterday Jiaqi and Choonhan came to my house and slack, play big 2. Choonhan keep on winning, she won 6 rounds, I won 3 rounds and lastly Jiaqi won 1 round :) Keke. If I'm not wrong, my memories can't make it, can't blame :D They went for dinner and meet up with them again at nearby my house. Played truth or dare, we girls playing truth or dare only, it's like not that exciting, LOL. Today went bugis meet up with Gelene and Kelvin. Sorry for letting your wait for me for so long, reached there, took neoprint with them. Headed to buy my strawberry dream, pork stick and lastly my 10donuts :D Dad came plaza fetch me for dinner. I'm waiting for Gelene to scan the neoprint to computer. I want to change my facebook display picture!! Added few songs to my blog, enjoy :) And nao, I'm so going to continue my 泡沫之夏, byebye :D

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Title : 恶作剧之吻 & 愛似百匯. ♥

Love buffet :)

炎亞綸 ♥

恶作剧之吻

恶作剧之吻2

It'd been 6 days I didn't post blog already. Finally done with this 3 dramas. I like it so much, so fast no more already, awww. I ♥ 鄭元暢 & 炎亞綸!! Keke. Alright, gonna go town with Gelene later on. Might post after I'm back home if anything interesting stuffs happen later on :D

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Title : Hurts.

Ouch, my thighs is aching since morning till now, didn't attend school today. If I continue dance, my legs sure break. I used up all my salonpas, 10pieces. And I haven't recover, walking like damn funny only. Today Gelene Gangyi and I never go school, only Kelvin, Denise and JunHong, Ahaha! I bet they're having fun today. Sister was sick today so mum took half day leave, brought sister to visit the doctor, she didn't attend my PTC and Ms Tia called. She only say about my lousy result but what about my science? She didn't even talk about it. Forget it! Rotted at home whole day, wanted meet up with Gelene and slack but because of this 9pm show, we didn't meet. Wanted to find you today, hai. Today is just not my day, moodswing just now, don't know why so pekcek. Choonhan intro me funshion, currently watching 爱似百汇, damn funny can? The guys very cute. Gosh, awww. Later gonna watch my channel8 9pm show then I guess I gonna continue this 爱似百汇. Shall not crap much, gonna 9pm soon :) Ciaos.

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Title : 4th day,

This known as mao wang, dad bought it at 55bucks, one for 8bucks, I ate two. Shiok! :D

My birthday present from Sarah, Thanks a lot, love you :)

Mine.

Gelene's.

Denise's.

Denise's, mine && gelene's.

My peanut mochi.

Buey tahan!! My legs walking like a lame now. Wondering should I go school? I don't feel like going, I don't feel like performing already, Terrence just now ask me to jump twice. I don't like. My legs aching like hell now. Walking worse than old people, like having fake legs, zz. Plus need to perform three times. Speech day, ACJC and lastly Gala Dinner, don't know why suddenly no mood to perform. Instructors was like giving us real hard times just now. Run the hall three rounds, even though I ran two rounds only. Tomorrow is the last day, like finally!! Hope my legs won't break. If you say you rather dance than study, seriously. You fucking will regret. Now I rather want study than dance. Dancing is fun but you surely will have aches everywhere. Sitting down also must put your hand on the chair to support your whole body first, can you see how painful it is? Maq told us to put full energy tomorrow, rehearsal from 8am to 1pm. Great! Tomorrow need to sit on wheelchair already. Actually I should stand behind. I shouldn't stand on the second row, no one is in front of me to block me. JunHong!! I want to change with you, I want to stand behind, then I don't need to jump twice, you not man at all sia, don't let me stand behind, you this idiot! I want to change la, :@ Tomorrow must tell GangYi that I want to change, I don't care! Went to Plaza eat ichiban sushi, then my wallet went bankrupt. LOL. Bought peanut mochi today! Nice, ate two pieces, give my family members one each. Only got six, not enough lor! Came home and just now Gelene call me, asking me something, secret between us. xiaomimi. LOL. Gelene, you know I know, we know can already, AHAHAHA. Bought salonpas just now, can see how ache I am till need to buy this right? Hope later when I paste it on my legs and back can sleep well tonight, song ah! :P Looking forward to tonight sweet dream, keke. I'm so gonna prepare myself for the channel8 9pm show, yesterday ending part was so touching k? Not like what I expected her to say, she actually said I will wait for you. Sweeeet. I also want to say that to you, I will wait for you until you let go of her, muacks. Sweet? Ahahaha. Gelene, I pro right? Whatever things also can link to him, gosh, I'm sucha pro. LOL. Should I upload the video of the steps of one song that we going to dance? By GangYi and co. Should I? Nvm, shall see first. Alright, now time is 8.51pm, gonna prepare for my 9pm show, byebye :)

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Okay! Today my body started to ache already, I'm old already, I can't do those tiring moves already. But I like the overall moves I learnt today. The moves we came out on our own not the instructors. Okay, actually I was slacking all along, GangYi and one guy in my class which I don't know how to spell his name, they are the one came out with those moves. I like it. After school went to have one stick with JunHong and GangYi. So weak of me, one stick makes me so seh and my leg damn heavy, can't walk properly. Headed to block163 to packet my wanton mee home, hungry!! Today didn't took the stairs, if I took the stairs I guess I'm now in the hospital already. Took my afternoon nap again, buey tahan. Learn the steps whole morning even I didn't really move much until the instructors want to see. I keep got mixed up by my hand and legs. Stupid! Gonna train train train until it's perfect. Ate two mochi, one strawberry one chocolate, so nice! I want more :D Gonna have one more later on :P Thanks sarah for the pooh bear, I love it, will put on my bed, sleeping with it de, thanks a lot. I like guys who know how to play piano, like romantic only. Alright, lastly Clarabelle don't think so much and jealous. We're just learning and training. Don't worry, JunHong love you very muchy :)

Listen to this, expressed my feeling too. The lyrics damn meaningful, the starting part of the piano I like, so sweet. Starting to like this song, thanks to ShaoYang who ask me to listen.

I must have more tears than I thought

How could it be like this

I let you go while smiling then

I'm not like other girls

I can't be too cunning like them

I can't meet anyone else

Because I can only think of you

You don't have to listen to my nagging anymore

But you can't become skinnier than you are now

Please make sure you eat

What should I do? I keep missing you

I miss being in your arms already

I still like you

Why did we separate?

Maybe you feel the same way I do

Maybe you're also crying

I hope you feel pain just like I do

And come back to me again

You must be living like nothings happened

I can understand that

In a way, that suits you better

You said I was number one on your speed dial

Over time, it will be filled

by other girlfriends numbers

What should I go? I keep missing you

I miss being in your arms already

I still like you

Why did we separate?

Maybe you feel the same way I do

Maybe you're also crying

I hope you feel pain just ike I do

And come back to me again

We used to spend the night talking ( those stories )

You used to want to be with me always ( that promise )

I tried to erase them but it's not working well

Foolishly, my tears keep coming

Already I want to go find you

You're starting to forget me already

So why can't I do the same?

No, you're the same as me

Please tell me that's the situation

Come back to me, please come back

Stop hurting now

Just one day by my side

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Today is second day of our elective programme. Terrence taught so many steps today can? And I just can't remember, and the beat go so fast, monday need to perform on either in school or homes. Like what the hell? I'm still a beginner. Aww. Came home and eat my lunch today, rest awhile and went jogging. Okay! One round, I can't make it already, my heartbeat pump so fast and my face became so red and worse of all, my asthmas attack, but I'm not dead yet. As usual I did took my afternoon nap today. And Sarah called me, seriously what the fuck is wrong with you? If your feeling fade, don't use such lame excuses to break can? Guys always like this, I just don't understand what you guys are thinking. Stop taking girls for granted, girls are not toys for you to play k. If you live in this world just to play girl's feeling, please kindly fuck off. I don't mind I am the one getting hurt but why is my sisters all getting hurt one by one? Shit you guys k. I don't wanna say this kind of things but you guys just force me to say it out. But can I ask? When you guys playing with girl's feeling, are you really happy when you hurt someone? Don't you guys feel guilty? I don't understand at all. Nvm, shall not let this topic ruin my mood. Shall upload the three songs, we gonna dance on school/homes and gala dinner.

I'm in love with Thai song, while listening to it, I thought of you.

I miss you.

1st song,

2nd song,

3rd song.

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Title : SmokingIsBadForHealth.

Okay! Today is the first day of elective programme, first stupid thing I did today, I didn't bring my P.E attire. Second, I dance like a monkey, laugh! Sorry, wanna make myself laugh so badly that I actually said this. Whole morning was learning hip-hop dance with Gelene, Kelvin, JunHong and GangYi. Denise didn't attend school today, miss her so badly! Learnt some few steps today. Tomorrow gonna split group, gonna follow that cute instructor. Ahahaha! On May, gonna represent our school in the Gala Dinner. Cool right? Ended school at 1pm. I feel that I'm back to Primary school life, Ahahaha. Tomorrow so gonna bring my P.E attire. Wearing skirt dance whole morning today, can't do some warm up. Argh. Came home and bathe, took one stick in the toilet and that only one stick make me feel so giddy that I got no strength. Just now when I took it, I felt my asthmas is coming back, maybe I shouldn't smoke anymore. My health!! I didn't know I'm so weak. Have my afternoon nap and now waiting for JiaQi to come here. She want to slack with me, later got people want her number again, Ahaha. Okay, my past posts can be seen but I don't know what happened to my august memories, my info moved to the middle. S-H-I-T!! Lastly, Thanks Sarah for that present. :)

FEBRUARY=THUG
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. A real speed demon. Has more than one best friend. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble.
Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

Got from Alicia's blog, :)

If you really love her, you won't do such stupid things to hurt her. Ask yourself, do you really love her?

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It's not how long you stayed together that matters ... But how you loved each other even for the shortest time you spent together.

I miss you when I laugh and cry because you are the one who makes the laughter grow and the tears disappear. I miss you when something good happens because you are the one I want to share it with, I miss you when something troubles me because you are the one who understand me well.

I am in love with someone whom I shouldn't be in love with.

The worst thing you can do is let me fall in love when you doesn't intend to catch me fall and vice versa.

Sometime I wonder in the blink of an eye: Would you be willing to love me, would you give it a try?

It's not who you think is the right one ... It is the one who will fit in the missing piece of your heart.

My heart says that I love you with all my heart ... No if's, no but's and no conditions.

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you.

How can I forget you when your always on my mind? How can I not want you when your all I want inside? How can I let you go when I can't see us apart? How can I not love you when you control my heart?

When I love someone it doesn't matter how many times I cry, how many hurting words I hear. What matter is how much I care and how long I am willing to sacrifice.

I'm still waiting for you ... I hope someday we will try to talk again, I missed you and will love you forever.

Sometimes people may ask me, 'Why? Why do you love him?' And the only answer I may be able to come up with is 'I don't know, I just do!'.

There's nothing more sadder in my life when I lose someone special and I know I can never replace that person in my life.

All day I push you out of my mind, but you still fill my dreams at night.

The saddest love is love someone to know that they still want you, but the circumstances don't let you have them.

I love you and I will tell you until you forget those things that hurt. I hate the things that hurt you and I wish I could take them away, I'll do it for sure '... but it cannot be done cause you won't let me do it ...'

I loved him so much, more than I could imagine I could love. Even if I have to wait a lifetime for him, I would. Our paths may be different now and our love is not possible. But I am willing to wait for the day when our path will cross again.

I don't know what you are up to, but I will find out sooner or later ... And for now, all I can do is just stay cool. Don't talk or ask ... just keep silent ... Hope my feeling for you won't change ...

If loving you is wrong, why does it feels so good? If loving you is a mistake, then I don't want to be right for our lifetime.

I look at you, you look at me. We smile, but you think we are just friends when I wish we were more than friends.

My heart whispers your name.

I just hope you understand me well enough.

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On 27th February, Gelene's phone.

GeleneOng,

King of mine, Thanks for your advices. I will keep all those useful advices in my mind. But for now, since I don't wanna be in relationship with anyone. I guess loving him is alright. Loving someone have no wrong right? I don't ask for much, not even ask him to be close to me like how we are in the past. I guess if it's time to let go, I'll definitely let it go. But for now, I just want to be one-sided, it's fine with me. If I said I love him and I can let it go so easily, it won't consider as love anymore. For what I need to do so many things just to hurt myself when I don't love him at all. If I said I can give up so easily, don't ever believe it, It was just a lied. A lied that I lied to you and myself.

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K, Yes I did. I just cried. I can't take it anymore. Keeping inside my heart for too long, maybe it time to cry it out. I didn't expect that I will cry it out today. I was waiting and waiting for your text yesterday, and yet after I reached home then your text come, I really wants you to keep that present from me to you, I don't ask for much, I don't ask you to love me back, why everything must turn out in this way? Is this even counted as a karma? How long must this continue? When will it end? I spam myself with cigg yesterday, and at last I don't feel well. I feel like crying but I just can't cry it out, I guess Gelene is right, it hurt so much that I can't even cry it out. Nearly faint when I'm waiting for bus. Gelene said that I smoke like I'm eating sweets. Do you know why? Because I wants to make myself not to think too much, so yesterday I took 9 sticks. How I wish I could have no stress. I just want you to keep it, is that even so hard? I'm not giving you drug, I'm giving you a keychain only. I was staring at the keychain just now, I kissed that pig and I kept it. Hoping you would just take it. But I'm glad that you still remembered to text me at last, you ain't any guys out there who just don't bother to care to reply. I wants to ask myself why? Why I know if I go into your profile I would see something I won't want to see but I still press it? Does it means I haven't even give up and waiting for the impossible to happen? I miss you.

I gave you up because I got no feeling for you, I don't want to hurt you by keeping you by my side, I guess you should start to give up. I know you still care for me even you didn't show it. There're a lot better girls out there, jiayous! I know I didn't stand in your shoe to taste how it feels but you must know even you got me, you don't have my heart, so no point k? And I'm sorry for everything.

As for you, since you can get along with her so well. I guess she can be the actress. She is thin, she is not fat like me. Even if you're drunk, you won't say her fat like how you said me. Thanks for your jokes yesterday, it did made me laugh. Thanks! And I don't hate her, I just don't like her. I just got a feeling, she is being opposite with me all the time.

Thanks Gelene for accompanying me whole night yesterday, had a heart to heart talk. I guess I'm feeling better. Chit chatting at the highest floor of the carpark and headed to the playground, lying down on the playground watching the stars. I enjoyed the stars yesterday, I guess Gelene enjoyed it too! :)

Heading to lotone nao, meeting JiaQi. She asked me out for a talk later on, having wine and cigg again, I guess my health won't be as good as the past already. I'm like making my own health from bad to worse. My memories is getting lousier, I kept on forgetting what I wanted to post, I might be posting more if I can recall or anything interesting stuffs happened later on. Bye.

I like this song so much, it somehow express my feeling.

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Title : Nextchill is my Love.

Yesterday's, shared with JiaQi and ShaoYang.

My solo wine, shiok right? :)

Okay! Yesterday drunk until very jialat, came home jitao can't make it, throw my stuff everywhere. Everyone seh ka, Jiaqi first to vomit followed by me. Throw up before I came home. Weak sia. Then ShaoYang's text all typo, noob fuck sia. Morning still went to school with my hangover, moodswing plus serious headache. Buey tahan! Now a bit feverish. Then stupid Jiaqi said want to kupp cigg, then at last give Xavier, so I went to buy my own packet, hehe. Next Chill Method is my LOVE. Awwww! One stick make me seh, weak smoker. LOL. Xiasuay sia. Later going Gelene's house downstairs for a heart to heart talk. Seriously need someone to talk to, I feel like crying. Shag~ My science I got 74/100, my A1 fly~ Physic got 20/30, biology got 24.5/30. Where is my one more mark? :( Alright, shall go to find Gelene now. Byebye :)

Don't love me for who I am, I don't fit for your love.

Like their dancing so much, nice. LOL.

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Title : Don'tyouwannastay.

Wow! Finally today I can have some rest. From Sunday till yesterday, I didn't get a chance to rest well. Argh. Mr Chua, when are you coming back? I'm despo for my biology paper!! I want to know how much I got for this paper. I slept for 2 periods in Chinese lesson, really tired. Got back my English paper, I got 15/30. Actually got 16 de lor, minus my mark!! Kelvin also, sadded! Ahaha! Nvm, at least got a pass. Everytime I failed, this time round didn't expected a pass. (Y) Even though it is just a pass, I'm still happy okay! :D Ate fruit cake in the morning before go to school and came home ate one chocolate cake, F-A-T!! Ohmygod. Slim please~ Alright, shall go and have a rest now. Goodnight peeeepo! :D

There are days where I feel like escaping from everything.

Okay, I'm awake by ShaoYang's text!! :@ LOL. Kidding. I drink until I very hot. ZZ. Before I sleep, I remembered when you sleep you like to play with something, Ahaha. Cute~ Alright, Shall enjoy my drinks. Will upload later lor. Lazy to upload now. Byebye :)