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Title : Did I just cried?

K, Yes I did. I just cried. I can't take it anymore. Keeping inside my heart for too long, maybe it time to cry it out. I didn't expect that I will cry it out today. I was waiting and waiting for your text yesterday, and yet after I reached home then your text come, I really wants you to keep that present from me to you, I don't ask for much, I don't ask you to love me back, why everything must turn out in this way? Is this even counted as a karma? How long must this continue? When will it end? I spam myself with cigg yesterday, and at last I don't feel well. I feel like crying but I just can't cry it out, I guess Gelene is right, it hurt so much that I can't even cry it out. Nearly faint when I'm waiting for bus. Gelene said that I smoke like I'm eating sweets. Do you know why? Because I wants to make myself not to think too much, so yesterday I took 9 sticks. How I wish I could have no stress. I just want you to keep it, is that even so hard? I'm not giving you drug, I'm giving you a keychain only. I was staring at the keychain just now, I kissed that pig and I kept it. Hoping you would just take it. But I'm glad that you still remembered to text me at last, you ain't any guys out there who just don't bother to care to reply. I wants to ask myself why? Why I know if I go into your profile I would see something I won't want to see but I still press it? Does it means I haven't even give up and waiting for the impossible to happen? I miss you.

I gave you up because I got no feeling for you, I don't want to hurt you by keeping you by my side, I guess you should start to give up. I know you still care for me even you didn't show it. There're a lot better girls out there, jiayous! I know I didn't stand in your shoe to taste how it feels but you must know even you got me, you don't have my heart, so no point k? And I'm sorry for everything.

As for you, since you can get along with her so well. I guess she can be the actress. She is thin, she is not fat like me. Even if you're drunk, you won't say her fat like how you said me. Thanks for your jokes yesterday, it did made me laugh. Thanks! And I don't hate her, I just don't like her. I just got a feeling, she is being opposite with me all the time.

Thanks Gelene for accompanying me whole night yesterday, had a heart to heart talk. I guess I'm feeling better. Chit chatting at the highest floor of the carpark and headed to the playground, lying down on the playground watching the stars. I enjoyed the stars yesterday, I guess Gelene enjoyed it too! :)

Heading to lotone nao, meeting JiaQi. She asked me out for a talk later on, having wine and cigg again, I guess my health won't be as good as the past already. I'm like making my own health from bad to worse. My memories is getting lousier, I kept on forgetting what I wanted to post, I might be posting more if I can recall or anything interesting stuffs happened later on. Bye.

I like this song so much, it somehow express my feeling.