Okay, know what?? Yesterday I just found out something, and quarreled with bf. He actually don't care when I leave. How sad can this be. Had been crying for hours, feel so miserable. My bf actually don't care anymore. Because of my swollen eyes, I can't go for work today, and also. My stomach feeling so unwell. Diarrhea from yesterday till now my stomach still not okay yet. Do you know why I cried? You don't care anymore. Know my second time N level result was so badly done. And you still can't spare me a feeling. You should know the feeling, but you don't even care. You asked me, who's more important, but do you know when you ask that, my heart just broke into pieces. Do you know why I was so angry towards you? It's because you didn't tell me, and you still need me to ask you, you still lie in the first place. This means what you know, we don't have the trust. Every couple should have trust in the relationship to let the relationship goes on. I really wondering, if this continue, how long can we lasts? Few more days? Few more months? or... Yesterday night I really wish there's someone who will bring me for rounding. At least my stress won't follow me for long. Yesterday I gave it a thought, why am I so useless, why I still didn't manage to promote even it's the second try. I really wondering, this is only the N level. How silly can it be... I just disappoint my parents so extremely much. Hopefully I can have a new start in ITE. I got a feel for pastry and baking, I feel like making desert for my love one, see them eat and their smiles. And lastly, I saw moth in my room for the whole day, wondering is it my grandmother who came back? three more days to her birthday, miss her so extremely much. Alright, my stomach not feeling good now, ciaos.